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Struggles

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I have been struggling. Physically and emotionally. I am sure they are linked.

I am still working on my thumb and there is still pain involved when I am not sure there should be any pain still happening. With my chronic illnesses I am not sure if they are the reasons or if I am pushing too hard. But I just carry on as there isn’t anything else I CAN do.

I am struggling emotionally as well. I am feeling unwanted, unliked, unnecessary, etc. This I do not know how to break out of except to pray, which I am doing a lot of. It is becoming overwhelming. I do not have anyone I can talk to about who could understand. I know God will get me through. I will lean on Him.

Our Lions Club needs more members. Do you have any suggestions on how to reach out? I would love to hear your suggestions. We do such good works for our community, we would love to do more.

Well, it is going to be a gorgeous day here so I better get prepared to be outside. Have a blessed day!

Unbelievable Day

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I was woke up with the news that a boy I have watched grow up while he played on the same soccer team as my grandson through many years was in a horrible pickup accident versus a semi last night. Turns out he is the half brother of my daughter’s best friend. Please, please pray for him. He is only 16. He has a whole life to live.

I went out of town for a doctor’s appointment that had apparently been rescheduled to next month. I had the rescheduled appointment wrote down for today not next month. So there was a communication error.

I am in a flare. That is not helping things. I hurt everywhere and just want to go to bed on my heated mattress pad, but my husband deserves some of my time and attention. We are going to go out for dinner and enjoy each other’s company. As much as I can, I have gotten excellent at faking it. He can rarely tell anymore. I want to keep it that way. What he doesn’t know…

I started the sourdough bread journey. Hahaha. My first attempt was a hockey puck. I haven’t had time for a second attempt. My starter is in the fridge, resting. I will pick it back up on Saturday if my flare calms down a bit. Maybe my husband could help me. Think positive thoughts.

Winter Recovery

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I had thumb surgery on Wednesday on my dominant hand. I am in a cast for three weeks then a splint for a few weeks. Today the pain is off the charts. I can’t do anything to get my mind off of it so I thought this would be a perfect time to post.

There hasn’t been much going on in my world except doctor’s appointments. I went to my Rheumatologist, and we discussed how the infusion I am on for the Rheumatoid Arthritis is wearing off at 6 weeks, not lasting the full 8 weeks it is supposed to. She increased the dosage and wants to see if that takes care of that. If not, we will change the frequency to every 6 weeks. I just know that those last two weeks have been hell. I don’t care which way fixes the issue as long as one of them does.

We survived the brutal snowstorm. We are fortunate enough to have a wood pellet stove we use as our primary heat source. Our furnace was not continually running during the brutally cold temperatures. The heat from wood heat is so much warmer than any other heat source in my opinion. Do you agree?

We also had company during the weekend. Our oldest grandchild stayed with us and helped dig us out. he helped shovel the sidewalks and driveway. He is a good kid, always willing to help.

What did you do this weekend? Did you stay in? Have to work? Craft? Tell me how you survived the winter storm.

Better…

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I feel better today, emotionally. Thank you to all who sent messages.

I woke around 1:15 a.m. wboth a really bad migraine and. Not a great start to the day. I am still dealing with that but it isn’t as bad as it first was. I can tell it is getting worse so I will take more meds to try to get a handle on it. There, that is done.

That is all that will be done today. Between the migraine and the RA. My joints are swollen and sore, warm to the touch. It seems as if writing this message is taking forever.

I am looking toward the future again but I am seeing some hope; a glimmer to grasp on to. I hope you do too.

God be with you everyday.

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