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Struggles

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I have been struggling. Physically and emotionally. I am sure they are linked.

I am still working on my thumb and there is still pain involved when I am not sure there should be any pain still happening. With my chronic illnesses I am not sure if they are the reasons or if I am pushing too hard. But I just carry on as there isn’t anything else I CAN do.

I am struggling emotionally as well. I am feeling unwanted, unliked, unnecessary, etc. This I do not know how to break out of except to pray, which I am doing a lot of. It is becoming overwhelming. I do not have anyone I can talk to about who could understand. I know God will get me through. I will lean on Him.

Our Lions Club needs more members. Do you have any suggestions on how to reach out? I would love to hear your suggestions. We do such good works for our community, we would love to do more.

Well, it is going to be a gorgeous day here so I better get prepared to be outside. Have a blessed day!

Unbelievable Day

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I was woke up with the news that a boy I have watched grow up while he played on the same soccer team as my grandson through many years was in a horrible pickup accident versus a semi last night. Turns out he is the half brother of my daughter’s best friend. Please, please pray for him. He is only 16. He has a whole life to live.

I went out of town for a doctor’s appointment that had apparently been rescheduled to next month. I had the rescheduled appointment wrote down for today not next month. So there was a communication error.

I am in a flare. That is not helping things. I hurt everywhere and just want to go to bed on my heated mattress pad, but my husband deserves some of my time and attention. We are going to go out for dinner and enjoy each other’s company. As much as I can, I have gotten excellent at faking it. He can rarely tell anymore. I want to keep it that way. What he doesn’t know…

I started the sourdough bread journey. Hahaha. My first attempt was a hockey puck. I haven’t had time for a second attempt. My starter is in the fridge, resting. I will pick it back up on Saturday if my flare calms down a bit. Maybe my husband could help me. Think positive thoughts.

I used too many spoons

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This is typical of me, I have to truthfully say. I am like most of us. When I have a day that I feel decent, I overdo it. It is like I have to make up for all the times I am not abl to do the things I used to do so easily, things that are either difficult or impossible now.

All I did is go on a motorcycle ride for a few hours. That was all it took. I wasn’t even the driver, just a passenger. I thoroughly enjoyed the ride, I have to admit. I feel my best when I am on the bike with my husband. I find a peace then that I do not have any other time in my life. That is my time to really connect with God. This is my time to release all concerns to Him.

I fight with feeling a deep anger for having this disease. I am, I believe, a good person, why was I dealt with this? Then I remember, everything is a lesson, Whether that lesson is for me or for someone else remains to be seen. Maybe this is God’s way of teaching me patience, something I am not know for. I don’t know I was given this cross to bear, but I will bear it to the best of my ability.

I fought hard to find a diagnosis for everything that was going on with me. It took a few doctors and a lot of persistence, but I was finally given answers as to what was taking me down. Whatever this post today may teach you, let it be to never give up. Maybe your life is a lesson to someone else, or maybe it is something you need to learn yourself. Whichever, DON’T GIVE UP! You are loved and wanted.

How long did it take you to get your diagnosis?

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