Future?

The last few days I have been down off my feet with migraines. I thought we had for the most part figured them out with Botox but either the Botox is wearing off faster or it is failing. They are beginning to come daily again. I am sitting here fighting one off as I type.

Between the migraines and the RA and the Fibro I have begun to look towards the future. And what it means for me. I am trying so hard to be optimistic and think that there will be an affordable option in the future that will tame these diseases so that I can have a future TO look forward to. Right now, though I am deep in the negative side and feel so depressed.

My family and friends do not know of the depths this has gone to, and I hope they never will. They do not understand that I am in constant pain every second of the day. I had a friend tell me this morning on the phone that I looked better than ever Sunday at church. I had to tell her it was actually a bad day. I have become quite skilled at masking the pain. I know they are tired of hearing that I hurt so I stopped telling them. I push through and end up hurting worse than ever but again, they do not know. I will not tell them; they are tired of hearing it anyway.

Please tell me how you get through these days of intense pain and depression. What lifts your spirits? How do you overcome?